The knot magazine features its first trans bride on the cover: YouTube’s NikkieTutorials for the magazine’s Fall 2022 issue.
The beauty guru, whose real name is Nikkie de Jager, is one of the platform’s most popular YouTubers. She has garnered 13.9 million subscribers in her 14 years on YouTube and has collaborated with the likes of Kim Kardashian, Selena Gomez, Megan Thee Stallion and Adele. Even after creating authentic beauty challenges like “Power of Makeup” to show how cosmetics can transform a person’s face, de Jager hadn’t revealed her ultimate truth until 2020 when she released a video titled “I’m Coming Out.” ” published.
At 25, de Jager announced to her millions of followers that she was “born in the wrong body” and publicly identified as transgender for the first time. “By the time I was 19, I had completely changed. I changed on YouTube,” she explained in the video. “I literally grew up and turned into myself in front of all of you.”
she said The knot This coming out was “one of the scariest moments of my life”. However, with her future husband Dylan Drossaers by her side, she felt more empowered to do so.
“I had a coupé made of stones around me. And one of those people was Dylan,” she told the publication. “He was everything I hoped for during that time because he was super, super supportive. He was with me every second.”
De Jager’s news made headlines around the world and even ended up with her The Ellen DeGeneres Show, where the Dutch native shared more about how, with her mother’s support, she began her transition when she was just 6 years old. “My mother is a queen, Mama Tutorials is a queen. Even when we went to the hospital to see what was going on, the doctors said, ‘Don’t take it too far. Let’s see where it goes.’ But then I came home and I was like, ‘Mom, I really want to wear girl’s clothes.’ And she said, ‘If you want to wear girl clothes, you will wear them,'” de Jager told DeGeneres.
Though her coming out was well received by her subscribers and supporters, de Jager had little to no control over the timing because, as she explained to DeGeneres, she was blackmailed by an unnamed person into sharing the information before they did .
“I received emails from a certain person and he didn’t approve of my ‘lying’ and wanted to expose that,” de Jager said. “I feel like his whole goal was to destroy my life. But plot twist: That didn’t happen.”
In fact, de Jager told The knot, The opportunity brought her and her fiancé, Dylan, closer together.
“When I had to click publish on my coming out video, it was a very scary moment because you don’t know what the future will bring. He took my hand and looked me in the eye and said, “That’s you. I’m going to post that. We’ll be fine. you got that Whatever happens, happens, but know that we have each other and it will be fine,” de Jager recalled. “When he said that, I thought, ‘This man will never leave me and I will never leave this man.’ I thought, ‘This is my person. He’s mine until the end of time.’”
The couple faced other obstacles throughout 2020 as they were forced to put wedding planning on hold due to the coronavirus pandemic. They were robbed at gunpoint in August of the same year in their home in the Netherlands. After going through it all together, 2022 is finally the year they make their marriage official — something de Jager said she wasn’t sure she ever would.
“After my previous relationship, I scrapped the idea of marriage because it didn’t work. I was like, ‘Okay, well, I’m never going to get married.’ But then when I found Dylan I was like, ‘Wait, this could be him. That might be where it actually happens, where I could have my happy ending,'” she said. “I’m looking forward to putting that ring on and kissing us knowing we’ve sealed the deal. I think , every bride says that.”
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